reflection knocks 6: just another day,

Assalamualaikum:)

This gonna be a quick post of another episode of life-wondering-thoughts.


Satu

When the time is ticking and all you have is your give-it-up thoughts, sorry but you can't help to think, so am I gonna give up two things today instead of one? And you'll continue on, with worries and feeling guilty for the long wait of another patient outside, while praying that you'll passed what ever you  have in hands in one go and then you can call in the other patient. But deep down, somehow, you feel unfair. To both of them. Because the one on the chair deserved your attention, and the one sitting outside deemed your service. And it's impossible to be at both places at the same time, attending different needs, and you're not up to that level too. And to what ever you have in hands, you're being unfair too. It should be good, as perfect is not your thing yet, and you should be doing it with all of your heart. Then you'll be satisfied with what ever you're providing to the patient.

But of course, you don't. You continue on, thinking of both. 

And no, the results will not be amazing. It'll be another messy thoughts crowding in your head for the day, which you carry with you every day. 

And repeat. For a year. (No!)


Dua


Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes

It''s true, strange and beautiful, Aqualung.


Tiga

There's a truth behind a cry
There's a cry behind a lie
There's a hope on every fright
There's a light on every night

Uh, I miss the Letto moments.



Empat

I remember reading this in Aug this year, 'cause it's part of the difficult moments, of being here. 

" Don't say it's the most bla bla bla - the most difficult moments ever, the worst day of your life, the worst time in your life, the most of anything-you-wanna-complain-bout."

'Cause it's not. And you'll face another day as such later in life. And you can't stop saying - it is your worst day ever. 

Just say - it's just another day. Another bad day. Just another difficult moment. Just another full-of-dramas-and-emotions-kind-of day. 

It would help.
It would sooth your heart a bit.
It would not make you as depressed as you would when you start to think that your day is the worst day ever.

It would help.
And a few days later, the thoughts of it being the worst day ever would slowly disappear, till you barely remember your feelings back then.

And it is no longer your worst day ever.

'Cause you're just heading into another bad day.
And that's okay.

It's just another day.
You'll passed through.
You'll be alright.

Smile, it's just another day.
And as usual, my so-called short note is not short at all haha
Kay, i'll be fine insyaAllah!

Senyumlah! :)


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